today i went to this really cool art marketplace slash open studio event! it featured some really cool artists and i bought a few stickers n prints! feel really happy about it cus i didn't spend that much money but also had a loooot of fun omg. the vendors were so cool and i think they were all part of this creative collective? or some kind of artist residency programme but they were all so awesome and inspiring. i've been struggling a bit with my creative side for a while and i often feel like i suppress myself and my visions. i think i kind of need to change the way i approach art and creativity because i tend to fall into the trap of being perfectionistic and making things for the sake of the final product, when sometimes you just gotta let it flow. these people all have the wittiest and coolest ideas and even though sometimes the execution isn't perfect, i think what people (including me) love seeing is the vision behind it and the artistry.
aesthetics is definitely important in art but i don't wanna let it control me and the way i create. it shouldn't have to be "marketable" or "visually appealing" to the general population or even me to be considered good art. i mean i've known that for a while now, but it's just been hard to really cement that into a mindset that permeates through to my creative habits. it's kind of hard for me to trust the process and be happy with an imperfect final project the way i am rn, but im trying to change that n be more okay with just making stuff for fun! it's honestly never that serious and sometimes u just gotta let it go. i find that i work better and can let loose a little when i have limited resources or if im in a situation that i perceive as "low stakes" - eg a short fun arts n crafts activity with my friends. it kind of spirals once i have a lot of options and i start to get stressed lol. so i kind of need to curate that vibe whenever i create and get past that inertia ^^
anyway ya i didn't have much to say but that's just something that's been on my mind lately.
- j